Why Do Dog Beds Smell Like Pine

thought-crazy, but .. maybe.

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it is terribly much because I text back terribly much I thought, resulting from a terribly great efron sad film named "like a miracle" with zac.

Ok, so .. respected

[as always, not to big and small letters .. ;]

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I used to be mentally as well as unbreakable. I was maybe a little sad because I had to cry but only when I am hurt .. or if I'm terribly sorry for myself. I was really nobody else. No matter what one has thrown me on the head, I knew better. It did not hurt. I've never seen anyone so close behind at me that he really hurt me could, I think. And then came Chris and I have developed feelings, through which I've somehow changed. I was sentimental, compassionate, I was able to empathize with others and have somehow a kind of seventh developed appropriate. At some point I knew when I will be disappointed. Days before, I got abdominal pain and knew it easy. I remember how every 2-3 Friday in the school sat next to Jenny and abdominal pain was because I knew he would not come. Even if he gave me the same moment ne sms wrote that he would come. I knew it. And he did not come. He never came, when I knew it. Nevertheless, I have every time hoped and feared and prayed and wept. In vain of course .. and each time it was like as if someone hit you in the belly. I have only executed live on the weekends. There was nothing more important, nothing what I'm more pleased than he. I never gave up hope, even though I knew exactly yet so .. I knew it would never be better and I have the stomach ache almost accepted. So many tearful weekends .. at some point it stopped, because the relationship ended. I think it should happen. It's like me just a rising light. It sounds strange for you to safely but if you think about it sometimes .. also, when you think about why something happens. That you, the man "taken" is that is loved by her Sun Actually, you were still free of the people who you did not do well.

* Vivien, kai, basti .. those were good friends. I've all loved for years, long known, familiar to anyone given much and received much. And suddenly, as if from nowhere, everything changes. 5 people are said to have meant so suddenly, they are against me? As hard to imagine .. SO hard to imagine that I still do not get in my head .. I do not understand. But what if it had not happened .. if .. I do not know. Maybe someone else has decided that it will run Sun Maybe. Maybe I had to lose in order to be freed by someone me my life takes .. my brain is my ambition, I mean. Since he is no longer in my life, I have one again. He went and I got me again. It is obvious .. I applied on line studio, got the job, met great new people, much great experience and I have goals again.
* Does that sound to be funny? I've just lost all hang on to reality. I've watched a film, "as if by a miracle," I cried my soul out of the body and started thinking. Usually comes out with something, which I will share with you leave.

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Is it that bad things happen to to avoid even worse? Can it be that everything should happen? Is it crazy to think that everything has come about because it is the best for me? This seemingly endless path .. I've changed as often as the school .. I have the thing perhaps from a completely wrong view angle. I met Chris. On the real school, which I in the 8th I class changed the way at about the time, was in the grave with chris, I got to know vivien & co. Then I was convinced my mother, my training as a foreign language assistant to leave .. and there I met Jenny. One day I was strolling with her shoes and she needed me in the neukölln arcaden dragged into which I had never gone without reason (I hate this country ..)

There I StudioLine discovered and Stephanie (aka Elfi) met. Apply she said, but just up. Then I switched back to school and became acquainted with yasmin. 1 years went by, and tears flowed 10 000. with chris it was more critical but I could not let go. early 2010 I applied to studio photography line. I had birthday on the same day ended the friendship vivien to & co. A week later, the relationship with Chris. A week later I knew why. A month later I got the invitation to the interview. I dropped out of school had a job in purchasing land, was attended by vivien & co came over them. A month later. Invitation to sample work. 1 week later, signing the apprenticeship contract. *

Today I talk over with Stephanie (from back then, arcade in the Neukölln), if we want to go with Steph (from my team in Spandau) to a WG.

Is not that crazy? Everything will fall .. all surrendered. Is it really so unreasonable that I Vivien & co should meet only to break away from me to Chris? I have visited then take place directly to Studio Line 2 different schools to get to know Jennifer and Yasmin?

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And then there's Julie .. And thus we come to one of the reasons why I started with youtube. She has written me an email one day, we went back and forth, we were talking about the forum (not present) and suddenly we were one heart and one soul, have made us and soon we will meet again.

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hen. Alias stoerfishprojekt on youtube. The dearest man on earth and my now, yes I would say almost best buddies. Without youtube I would have never met and I can not imagine more now.

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to next reason why I probably started with youtube: her. All the ones over my time in which I was so sad because chris, have nursed. You have given me so much power, I wish I could somehow return to you all. I love every single one of you who called me up at that time, I do in my me-although you still do not really know-always supported and always love dalässt words to me up the day, cheer and encourage me. It's really true. Without you my whole time would then harder. In that you have listened to me, simply "there" and waiting .. ah. I'm lost for words. Really. I can only say again, thank you:) so so much.

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now I must hurry to bed, it is in fact now 1:37 and I have to squint your eyes to see what I write here xD

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So my love, I sit here the whole day away, I wanted to say on the whole is, I think everything has a good reason. At least when it comes to such things, of which I have now told. for the death of people you love, I still found no explanation .. but that I am working a lot again.
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* Anyway, I wish you once again love everything! :)

your Ninchen.